Over the Christmas Holidays, I decided it was best to get back to my healthy way of eating. It was obvious that a pound of M&M’s, eaten over the course of two days was killing me. The headaches were becoming unbearable, not to mention the sluggishness, shortness of breath and overall bloated feeling. Who was I kidding? There is no freedom in telling yourself that you’re free to eat whatever you choose–short term gain for long term pain.
I do have some weight-reated goals:
1. I’d like to be a Mother and good Moms are not obese. I want to have energy so I can spend quality time with my child–not to mention the health benefits of being fit during pregnancy. I’m concerned about my child’s health and I don’t feel I can be a good role model for healthy eating if I don’t actually eat healthy ALL THE TIME.
2. I’m travelling to Europe in April and I’d like to be comfortable in my seat for the 7 hour flight. Europe isn’t like North America. We won’t have a car while we’re there, so it will be public transportation and walking for 2 weeks. I don’t want to have sore and swollen feet.
In my lifetime, I have made goals like this. Unfortunately, I often “cheat” while I’m on vacation OR I feel that my work is done once the goal comes to pass. This cannot happen in 2009. Speaking in health terms, I can afford to go hog wild (excuse the pun) with food. I have to show some restrait. I have to be healthy and fit.
Over the weekend, I considered that blogging my progress from time to time would serve as an incentive as well as a method of saving my thoughts. The idea of writing a book about my trials and tribulations has crossed my mind. Diet books are popular and inspirational writings come in so many configurations, but how many books are written by people who haven’t succeeded? I want to succeed, but I want others to know that it was a long process, rather than something that was “magic” once I found the secret. As a fat woman, I want other women to know that I did this for my health, rather than for the sake of being “accepted” by others. One would assume that in this day of successful women, it wouldn’t be difficult to find someone who agreed with me, but I have YET to find a woman who loses weight and doesn’t aspire to be “hot”.
I have been low-carbing since Jan 5th, 2009. I am not super strict with myself. What’s the point? I learned the hard way that my type A approach to dieting is the kiss of death. More than once, I’ve dieted myself into a cravings stupor that led me to my pound-a-day M&M’s habit that overcame me for half of 2008. My mantra is simple–if there are few low-carb choices, eat smaller portions of the carby things. When faced with sweets, the choice is NOT to indulge at all. Sweets only making the cravings monster worse, so why bother? At the moment, my cravings are gone…..
I have my yearly physical on July 8, 2009. I want to be able to be weighed without cringing on that day. I want my Doctor to congratulate me on my progress and be proud of my accomplishments. It will be a difficult process, but I plan to get there. Who knows? I might even exercise!
